One month

It was one month yesterday that my Dad passed away. It has been such a roller coaster ride the past couple of weeks. There are good moments and bad moments, but for the most part I have felt calm and peaceful.

Dad's funeral was really nice. It was a hard, hard day but also very spiritual and uplifting. I had to give the eulogy and it was probably the hardest thing that I've ever had to do. It felt impossible to put into words my thoughts and feelings for my dad, but I hope I was able share just a tiny glimpse of how much he meant to me and the great life that he led.

My Uncle Russ and my Uncle Creig spoke, and they both did amazing. I know that I could turn to any one of my uncles or aunts if I ever needed anything. My love and appreciation for them has grown so much. I want to be near to them because it helps me feel close to my Dad. My brother Jeff sang and my brother Craig played the cello. They both did beautifully. I love them so much. I have been amazed at their strength. They are such great men and I know that my Dad is very proud of them. I love my sisters too. They are my best friends and I'm so thankful to have them in my life.

At the end of the funeral my Mom got up and shared her testimony. She is an incredible woman and such an example to me. I know this has been impossibly hard on her but her faith has never wavered. Her dedication to her family and to the gospel hasn't lessened even for a moment. I'm so glad to have her as my Mom and I love her so much. The whole day my heart was so full of love.

Jake did really good too. I was concerned with how he might react to seeing Grandpa at the viewing, but I think it actually helped him to understand what was going on. He kept going over to the casket to look at Grandpa. At one point he came to me and asked why Grandpa was in a big treasure chest. It made me smile. I think my Dad would have thought that was pretty funny. We talked about the resurrection and how our spirits go to heaven when we die. It was great opportunity to teach and I think he felt the spirit. He talks about the resurrection all the time now and is always asking me when that's going to happen because he wants to talk to Grandpa again. His faith is a strength to mine. I have been so blessed. I feel like everywhere I turn I am reminded of what I have been given and have found comfort all around me. I'm so grateful for my family and for their love and support. I have so much to be thankful for!



My Aunt Tamara got Jake a handsome new suit. He loved it!


Several of my aunts put together a beautiful table with photos and a few things that my Dad loved. It looked amazing.